A Soul Searching Prayer

Dear Lord, I ask Your blessing,
For I am still in pain.
I never thought I'd make it
To March 15th again.

This year has seemed much harder
Than I ever thought it would.
I thought that if I made it through
The first year, I'd be good.

But each day seems much tougher
Than the one that came before.
I truly hoped my pain would be
Lesser and not more.

The cloud of fog has lifted
But the pain seems more severe.
I don't think I can make it
Through another grief-filled year.

The months ahead, my dear Lord,
Will be especially tough,
For Robbie's classmates graduate.
Have I not cried enough?

While the other parents celebrate,
My eyes will fill with tears.
And it somehow doesn't seem right
That Rob's been gone two years.

Give me the strength to make it through
And help my soul to see
That Robbie's safe and whole with You,
For all eternity.

Help me to feel his presence near,
The brush of angel wings,
Teach me once again to smile,
Help my spirit sing.

Turn my mourning into dancing,
As You said You would,
Help my spirit look to heaven
And to see the good.

For I know that life's eternal
When we give our hearts to You,
And someday I will be in heaven
When life on earth is through.

Let me dwell on that glad hope
And not on tears and pain.
Someday I will live with You
And be with Rob again.

Robbie's Mom Forever and Ever,
Saralyn McAfee Smith

Thank you, Beth, Hayes' mom, for this beautiful gift!

Thank you, Susie, Jason's mom, for this lovely gift!

Thank you, Donna, Corey's mom, for this beautiful gift!

Thank you, Christine, Deborah's mum, for this lovely gift!



Music playing is "Eclipses of the Heart," copyright 2004 by Bruce DeBoer,
and is used with the permission of the composer.